Monday, January 16, 2012

One year ago today...

I've been a bit MIA this past week. Focusing more on getting my Project 365 off the ground rather than my dear old blog, I'm afraid. That. And trying to organize my "stuff." If you ask BSD, I haven't gotten anywhere on that front. But there is quite the pile ready for the Samaritan house pickup on Wednesday. And later this week I plan to crawl into my closet and not come back out until a good mountain of excess has been scaled.

I've also had a lot on my mind this past week. One year ago today I said goodbye to my mom. I held her hand, kissed her cheek, and told her goodbye. I knew it was going to be the last time I saw her. She died peacefully in the middle of the night. I know she waited until we were all home asleep. She did not want us to be there. She was stubborn like that. I miss her everyday.

I love you, Mom! 

This photo was taken about 5 years ago? It was taken with my dad's old Hasselblad. I asked him to bring it to our house that Christmas to get some family photos. I'm so glad I did. I had no idea then what they'd mean to me. One of my goals this year is to learn how to shoot with my dad's old cameras. I'm going to start with his old Leica first. It's less intimidating than this one.

16 comments:

Kim {Yep, they are all mine} said...

Gorgeous pic, Kim. Thinking of you today. xoxo

Megan said...

Hugs to you friend. That is one special photograph.

Karina said...

So hard to think of our parents not being there forever. Thinking of you. Love your dads camera collection.

karren said...

I certainly understand how you miss your mom. I miss mine too. We never really get over it. Lovely picture... I am sure it is a treasure.

Andrea said...

Beautiful photo and very precious too. Lots of hugs for you Kim. Take care xxx

Nicolle said...

I know this is a tender time for your heart. Thinking of you and sending you lots of hugs and love. The photo is stunning. I'm so glad you have it! xo.

sloan said...

that photo is wonderful! i wish i could reassure you that this week will get easier with the years ... but the truth is that you'll always feel the bruise, especially now - take heart in memories like the one pictured ... glad to hear you're focusing on positives like 365 and organizing ... shedding the excess will be so cathartic!

Gabe said...

Beautiful, Kim. What a wonderful photo to have!!

Sending prayers your way!

Corey Schwartz said...

Beautiful photo, Kim. Thinking of you!

Kerri said...

Such a beautiful picture of you and your mom Kim! My good friend just lost her mom on Jan 1st. I have read that you cannot know how it feels to lose a parent until you have gone through it. Sending a big hug your way my friend!

Cathy M~(checkitoff) said...

Kim, I am thinking of you! When I saw this photo, I thought this is a new one of Kim and her momma. One year anniversary of her passing has to be damn HARD. This photo is beautiful and has so much depth. The fact that your Dad took it and that you now have his cameras and lenses, is really amazing. Please know that your Mom & Dad are proud of you and how beautiful you are~inside and out. hugs, cathy

Kristin said...

I want to crawl through the computer and give you a great big ((Hug)). These first anniversary's are so, so hard...I wonder if they'll ever get any easier. My heart aches for you, and I hope you know that I'll be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers during this time. I'm glad you have this wonderful, special picture of you and your Mom and I'm so glad you shared it with us. Treasure it and treasure every wonderful moment with your beautiful family for you know all too well how fleeting time is!

Caroline said...

I am sorry about your Mom...that is so hard. What a wonderful photo of you both. Ohhhh a Leica? Very cool...old camera's like that scare the pants off me!!!

Lisa - A Room with A View said...

That is a beautiful picture and you must definitely learn to use your dad's cameras - will probably get some amazing photographs.

Anonymous said...

What a beautiful photo of you & your mom! Thinking of you!

Mitzi

humble habit said...

That's beautiful, thinking of you and sending hugs your way xx