Thursday, September 2, 2010

Starting to Freak Out About Now...

I'm sure you're all sick of hearing me talk about my illnesses, but today it just got even more crazy around here.

The doctor called to have me come back in for a follow-up chest xray. I was going to blow it off because I do feel better, but I do still cough something fierce every now and then. So I went. And now I'm sitting here waiting for them to call me back with a CT scan appointment.

The xray showed that my lungs have not cleared. There is also some little denser spot that he's concerned about. He said there is "scarring." From what he didn't know. I asked him if he thought I may have tuberculosis because when I used to teach I'd fail the TB skin tests. I'd move on to the chest xray, but that was always negative. 

He gave me a look that was not the one you want to see when you ask a question like that. He pursed his lips and just nodded slowly. 

From there we looked at my xray together, talked about wispy areas,  sanitoriums, six month treatments, and chicken farming. It's all jumbled up in my head. 

When I left, he said, "Try not to stress about it. Whatever you have is treatable." 

So, I'm going to try to hold onto those words as I sit here and wait for them to call me with my appointment date and time. 

Tonight is Open House for the ballerinas. I wonder if I should go out and get a mask to wear. Either that or I'll just pin a sign on my chest that reads...

Typhoid Mary is in the house. Approach at you own risk.

9 comments:

Kimberly said...

I hate those looks from the doctor! Try to listen to him and not stress, although I know that is far easier said than done. I'll be thinking about you! xo

sloan said...

Yikes Kim - hope you've got the appt all set by now and that you've got your answers sooner rather than later ... in the meantime, try to 'stay calm and carry on' as they say ;-)

Cindy said...

Goodness, sorry to hear about all of that. Like Sloan said, I hope your answers comes sooner rather then later.
Thinking of you and sending up prayers

gabe said...

oh Kim. . .wow!!! Hope all your apts line right up and you are able to remain calm and enjoy Open House!

And yes. . .every year I hope for a good year. Leslie got the 5th grade teacher with the reputation for yelling. . .ugghhh!!

Miss Sew & So said...

oh kim...there is nothing like your kids being sick or poorly and you soo wish it was you and not them...and then when you actually get sick...and are waiting for the plan of action to make you well again...you realise how much you keep everyone else going ...

i hope you saw your beautiful ballerinas...
and i hope that your doctors deal with whatevers going on quickly and compassionately....and i hope your gals are making you smile between the coughing...

thank god for our kids keeping us removed at times from reality...

big hugs and thinking of you as i head to bed with a tea and a book...

melissa xx

Dani said...

Oh my.

*Try* to focus on the positive. Easier said than done, I know.

I'll be thinking of you. And I'd give you a hug if I saw you...I teach kindergarten; besides Ebola, there aren't many illnesses that scare me.

Jill said...

Will keep you in my prayers. Stay positive!
Many Blessings,
Jill

serialswooper.com said...

Resist that nagging urge to Google. Nothing good ever comes from googling medical stuff. Next thing you know, you'll decide you have a rare form of untreatable scarlet fever and that a small zit on your thigh is actually a nest for spider eggs.

Feel better? Ha.

Chin up. Doctors know best.

Sending lots of positive thoughts your way.

Stephanie said...

Oh my, you poor thing! I sure hope you get some answers soon, but most importantly, I hope you feel better soon! ((((HUGS)))) to you! I'll be thinking and praying for you.